Grief

I'm fleeting thoughts on a leash

For the moment, high as fuck

I've been alone in my shit for the longest

Snakes sliding in the street

The Goods

Clothes:

Jacket *katat0nik* (FEMALE) Winter Beast Coats by Katat0nik Pidgeon
Top **RE** Portia Lace Bustier - Black by crashnoww Resident
Tapped guts SiniStyle Taped Guts by Krius Misfit
Pants =Zenith=leather legging with belt (Black) by Miffyhoi Rosca
Boots Mirus Adventure pants and boots by V1CT0ria Resident

Accesories:
Mask Nana - Demian Cross Black Mask by Audrey Lanfier
Necklace #187# Ouija Necklace BlackGold by Kalya Damour
Prosthesis CGoo multitool arm prosthesis 01 by candycane007 Resident
Belt ::TI:: Machete Belt (Bronze) by glamSOglamour
Claw (Poisoned Diamond) Iron Fist Claw ONYX PACK by Aude Adored
Knife legband [BODY FACTORY] Legend Knife Holster (Black) by Deco Olinger
Scissor *~M`n B~* Scissors set (box) by M n B (marley.blogfan)

Body: 

Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Shadows around eyes 10. VileCult - The Witching Hour 2 by ZoryaNite Resident
Dirt on body and face ViGo Creations - Dirt all over by Vila Targaryen (vilandra.miles)
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Nails Action Nails Wookey HUD V1 by MarilynMonroe Munro
Hair TRUTH HAIR Roux -  colours by Truth Hawks
Poses Elephante Poses by MelissaJeanne Flores
Hand by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

I Found

And I'll use you as a warning sign

That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind

And I'll use you as a focal point

So I don't lose sight of what I want

Been away. Slowly trying to remember how to do the SL things!

The Goods

Clothes:

Jacket *COCO*_CroppedBikerJacket_Black by cocoro Lemon
Shirt Foxes - Festival - Tassled Tank - Eye by Tyr Rozenblum
Tapped guts SiniStyle Taped Guts by Krius Misfit
Belt Foxes - Urban Fallout - Belt - Dark [box] by Tyr Rozenblum (gacha in store)
Pants Addams // Rocker Zipper Jean // Black by AmaliaRainwood Resident
Boots *LightStar -Black Native American Indian Bootsby Krystal Silverweb

Accesories:
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Necklace !TLB - Human Teeth Jewelry Set by Drusilla Dethly
Crowbar From Parts Unknown - Crowbar by perfectslam resident
Glove [ContraptioN] The Saboteur's Claw *???* BOXED by Faust Steamer
Knife in boot *~M`n B~* Hunting Knife by M n B (marley.blogfan)

Body: 

Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Eyebags KOSH- TO MUCH STRESS MAKE UP by Lynaja Bade
Eyebags 2 .Pekka. Eyebags - light by Kathya Szczepanski
Lips antielle. The Alchemical Transformation (7) Coagulation by Kaorinette Resident (¨Store no longer exists - Gacha item so could be found on MP)
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Nails Action Nails Wookey HUD V1 by MarilynMonroe Munro
Hair  Moon. Hair // - Erratics - Sparrow by Silent Acoustic
Poses Elephante Poses by MelissaJeanne Flores
Ears UNISEX[MANDALA]SIMPLE_EARS_HUTU by kikunosuke Eel
Hands by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Sometime Around Midnight

Then you walk

Under the streetlights

And you're too drunk to notice that everyone is staring at you

You just don't care what you look like

The world is falling around you

The Goods

Clothes:

Dress ISON - sahara wrap dress (black) by Harry Hyx
Shoes/Socks =Zenith=Belt leg warmer (Black) -Maitreya by Miffyhoi Rosca

Accesories:
Crown RO - Eurial - Black - Vendor by AxsisThorn Resident
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Collar .aisling. Nura by Druunah Esharham
Necklace .random.Matter. - Circe Necklace - Onyx by Nikohl Hax
Shoulder pads -SECRETS- Razor Shoulder Pads *BOX* by Dryka Loon
Arm ribbon Asteria - Belen Arms Banded  [Maitreya&Standart Sizes] - Black by kathrine Asteria
Scissor and fish *{( konpeitou )}* Yami-Neko 10 : a i jo u by pnknkitin Resident (gacha)
Rose legband DL:: Dirty Rose Legband by TitiTinyTo Resident
Hatchet .DirtyStories. Dirty Hatchet by DontLeaveMeAlone Resident (Group gift)

Body: 

Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Blood face -[TWC]- Lament by Jareth Cygnet
Soot face 1 COMMON -[TWC]- Possesed Face l by Jareth Cygnet
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Blood all over body + Filthy Crimson Butterflies & Tattoo + {aii} by PrincessAii Resident
Hair Alice Project Halloween Massacre Special VIP 2015.10.31 by AliceProject Resident
Poses Elephante Poses by MelissaJeanne Flores
Hands by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Stump made by the awesome Londinia Leistone
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Numb

I'm turning on some spinning wheel

The faces and the scenes I see

And none of it seems real to me

Just the bleary haze of the morning still to come

The Goods

Clothes:

Jacket and bra =Zenith=Criminal Police Jacket (Black) Maitreya - RARE by Miffyhoi Rosca (@The Epiphany until August 15th)
Tapped guts SiniStyle Taped Guts by Krius Misfit
Belt (Yummy) Alchemy Belt - Black by Polyester Partridge
Pants *MUKA* Shirley - Pack 4 by Muka Release
Boots Combats rigged - black by Jaimy Hancroft

Accesories:
Face straps ::Axix:: Morpheus Straps FATPACK by Elise Mannequin
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Necklace (Yummy) Room Key 237 Necklace by Polyester Partridge (Gacha in store)
Blade on belt :BAMSE: Earth Blade - Duster [BOX-WEAR] by LiamZander Resident
Glove [ContraptioN] The Saboteur's Claw *???* BOXED by Faust Steamer
Ring RO - Sanctus purchase container by AxsisThorn Resident

Body: 

Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Crosses on face -[TWC]- Crox. by Jareth Cygnet
Marks under eyes Clemmm & In Mourning - Flooded . Ruptured Eyes by Clem Velinov
Lips antielle. The Alchemical Transformation (7) Coagulation by Kaorinette Resident (gacha)
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Nails Action Nails Wookey HUD V1 by MarilynMonroe Munro
Hair  .LeLutka.Vivid by Thora Charron
Poses Elephante Poses by MelissaJeanne Flores
Hands by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Hurt

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here

The Goods

Clothes:

Dress -Pixicat- Thorn.Dress (Maitreya) RARE by areve Resident (@The Epiphany until August 15th)
Feet chains [CX] Melted Heart Feet Chains (Sea) by Kamayari Resident (@Uber August)

Accesories:
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Collar TABOU. Thief Collar - Black (RARE) by glamSOglamour resident (gacha in store)
Arm Tapes ~ EsmeSia ~ Arm Tapes by Esmeralda Siamendes
Left arm prothesis Tachikawa Heavy Industries lower Arms (S) by Shigeko Tachikawa
Arm and legs ropes Moon Elixir - Shibari - Onyx by ElixirBlack Resident
Right hand wrap :Diamante:  Pentagram Hand Wraps (SLink) Boxed by Alliana Petunia
Bloody nails [CX] Broken Claws (Bloody) by Kamayari Resident (@The Epiphany until August 15th)
Knife 3. :BAMSE: Trench Knife - Golden (GORE) RARE by LiamZander Resident  (Gacha in store)

Body: 

Possessed face and body The White Crow by Jareth Cygnet (@OrigamiXUbume until Sept 10th)
Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Bloody feet Clemm by Clem Velinov
Nails Action Nails Wookey HUD V1 by MarilynMonroe Munro
Hair with horns Alice Project - Ilaria - Colors by AliceProject resident
Pose Elephante Poses Glam #6 by MelissaJeanne Flores
Hand & feet by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Pilgrim

Doesn’t matter when it mattered yesterday

And tomorrow ain’t too far

Come a long way

From small beginnings

The Goods

Clothes:

Shirt Moon Elixir - Rekt - Shirt - Witchy Graphics (unpacked) by ElixirBlack Resident
Pants erratic / taylor - denim pants / regular 3 (maitreya) (unpacked by Erratic Rain
Boots *LightStar-Engineer Boots Faded Black by Krystal Silverweb

Accesories:
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Necklace short TABOU. leather& spicked chain Necklace - Black by glamSOglamour resident
Necklace long :[P]:- Sea Dreaming Jewelry:// Darkness by Aikea Rieko
Arm Tapes ~ EsmeSia ~ Arm Tapes by Esmeralda Siamendes
Arm straps *MUKA* Arm Strap by Muka Release
Axe xin. axe bag + RARE by superjaix Resident (Gacha in store)
Sword arm [CX] Duel's Aftermath (Onyx) (unpacked) by Kamayari Resident
Glove .random.Matter. & Le Morte - Aeson Set - Onyx by Nikohl Hax (@Men Only Monthly until 15th of July)
Claws **RE** Savage Claws & Rings by crashnoww Resident (@Men Only Monthly until 15th of July)
Garter B.C.C Jenny&Megan - Garter A Black -B [Wear] by vitamingirl resident (Gacha in store)
Knife in boot *~M`n B~* Hunting Knife by M n B (marley.blogfan)

Body: 

Crosses PunchDrunkCandy: Edyn's Cross To Bare by Nonois Resident
Dirt -[TWC]- Dirt & Blood by Jareth Cygnet
Eyebags 1 -[TWC]- Tired *We<3RP Gift* by Jareth Cygnet
Eyebags 2 Le Forme - Scary Eyes  Catwa+Tattoo Layers by Louise Marsault
Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Lips antielle. The Alchemical Transformation (7) Coagulation by Kaorinette Resident (gacha)
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Hair MINA - Sharon - Light blond by Mina Nakamura
Pose Elephante Poses Little Bird #2 by MelissaJeanne Flores
Stump made by the awesome Londinia Leistone
Hand by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Heal

Take my heart and take my hand,

Like an ocean takes the dirty sands.

And heal, heal, heal, heal.

The Goods

Clothes:

Jacket Foxes - Urban Fallout - Jacket - Lara Exclusive -Dark[box] RARE by Tyr Rozenblum (gacha in store)
Shirt =Zenith=Star Gladiator Bra Top (Black) by Miffyhoi Rosca (@Uber June)
Tapped guts SiniStyle Taped Guts by Krius Misfit
Pants Yasum*Xena Leathers*ADD ME*Night by Azlyn Vaher (@We <3 RP until June 30th)
Boots *LightStar-Pirate Boots Dark Black by Krystal Silverweb

Accesories:
Mask .{PSYCHO:Byts}. Demon War Mask - Black (unpacked) by psikotik Gothly
Face piercing - .HoD. - Deardriu Piercing (Female Fit) by aydan.darcy
Necklace :[P]:- Trellion Jewelry:// Noir by Aikea Rieko
Bracelet AITUI - Rocker Bracelet - Black by Jesseaitui Petion
Claw (Poisoned Diamond) Iron Fist Claw ONYX PACK by Aude Adored
Belt [RA] Slaver Belt (Black) by Candela Kira
Knife 3. :BAMSE: Trench Knife - Golden (GORE) RARE by LiamZander Resident (@Shiny Shabby until July 15th)

Body: 

Face paint around eyes + War Paint Pack + {aii} by PrincessAii Resident
Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Lips antielle. The Alchemical Transformation (7) Coagulation by Kaorinette Resident (gacha)
Teeth [whatever] Teeth 2.0 - Dirty (tinted + alpha made by me) by AnnaGrey Resident
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Hair /Wasabi Pills/ Dakota Mesh Hair - Fireworks by MissAllSunday Lemon
Pose and backdrop Exposeur by RubyStarlight Writer (Closing sale, 80% off - Ends June 30th)
Stump made by the awesome Londinia Leistone
Hand by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Can't Pretend

Feel, my skin is rough,

But it can be cleansed,

And my arms are tough,

But they can be bent,

The Goods

Clothes:

Top Stories&Co. by Flowey / Ash Top - Black C88 by Flutter Memel
Stomach belt Kaithleen's Rogue Leather Belt by Zlyskritek resident (gacha in store)
Shorts =Zenith=Berserker Short with Belt (Black) Maitreya by Miffyhoi Rosca (gacha in store)
Boots *LightStar-Buckled Boots-Faded Black by Krystal Silverweb

Accesories:
Mask :BAMSE: Fury - Nightmare by LiamZander Resident
Bandana *katat0nik* (texture-change) Bandana Scarf by Katat0nik Pidgeon
Bag HX: Black Spray Can Backpack by EgyptHansome resident
Sleeves Vinyl - Stirling SLeeves - PAK  BLACK by sukoshitosuto resident
Axe [The Forge] Salvage Axe by Deccan Arida (gacha in store)
Belt ~Pepper~ Sprayer Belt xs by Danni Pfeffer (store closed)
Upper legs harness phedora. Margaret harness by Celena Galli (@Rock Attitude Fair until June 18th)
Lower leg harness {le fil casse} the provocateur leg harness maitreya black by Jacinda Jaxxon
Leg straps TABOU. Thief Leg Ribbon _ Black by glamSOglamour resident (gacha in store)
Crowbar From Parts Unknown - Crowbar by perfectslam resident

Body: 

Black smears -[TWC]- Possesing you. -Black- by Jareth Cygnet
Paint smears [MIKO] ~ The Artist ~ Colorful & Bloody by MikoCupcakes resident
Hair .aisling. Arnkatla by Druunah Esharham
Poses Exposeur - Spring Singles by RubyStarlight Writer (Closing sale, 80% off - Ends June 30th)
Hand by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

Stitches

Just like a moth drawn to a flame

Oh, you lured me in, I couldn't sense the pain

Your bitter heart cold to the touch

Now I'm gonna reap what I sow

The Goods

Clothes:

Sleeve shrug Lenora Shrug - Black by Kiddo Oh
Top Elegance Boutique -Top  "Jade" -Black - Maitreya-Slink by Elagantia Resident (@Ultra until June 15th)
Tapped guts SiniStyle Taped Guts by Krius Misfit
Skirt *Just BECAUSE* Elise Maxi Skirt - Black by Annie Melson (@Uber June)

Accesories:
Crown, veil and flowers *Tentacio* Black duchaness by May Tolsen
Moth SS-Falena by SinfulSky Resident
Necklace Moon Elixir - Luna - Necklace (unpacked) by ElixirBlack Resident
Arm Tapes ~ EsmeSia ~ Arm Tapes by Esmeralda Siamendes
Armband DL:: Demon's Hunter Armband by TitiTinyTo Resident
Bracelet **RE** LUX Lena Set by crashnoww Resident
Glove . aisling . Darshana Hand Jewelry by Damian Kleiner
Belt *~M`n B~* Sash Belt 1 by marley.blogfan
Axe *~M`n B~* Axe set by marley.blogfan

Body: 

Running make up .Pekka. Dark makeup marks by Kathya Szczepanski
Eye make up VileCult - Putrid EyeBags FatPack by ZoryaNite Resident
Make up ::TI:: Dirty eyes Tattoo by glamSOglamour Resident
Bloodshot eyes Clemmm - Bloodshot Eyebases by Clem Velinov
Grease on hands [NI.JU] Mechanic Hands SLINK Appliers by Vitani Jun
Hair TRUTH HAIR May -  colours by Truth Hawks
The poor man's stump by Me
Poses Elephante Poses Little Bird #2 by MelissaJeanne Flores
Hand by Siddean Munro (with [PUMEC]  skin applier by otyebis)
Eyes IKON Promise Eyes - Field & Leonine by Ikon Innovia
Skin **[PUMEC]  - .:IVANA:. - SKIN - Spring** by otyebis

3 years of blogging!

I realized today that I missed my Blogiversary’s date. I started this blog on the 18th of May 2013, so it has now been three years!

If you had told me back then that I would last this long, I would not have believed it. I always had a love/hate relationship with Second Life and other online games. I tend to binge on a game and then move on to something else. Remaining for such a long period of time is unusual for me.

Second Life, however, has kept me coming back and this time for three years straight!

I have already spoken in past blogiversary’s posts about the creative side of blogging and roleplaying that are a big part of my interest for this online world. And this hasn’t changed! I can see my writing and Photoshop improving every day and, for someone who isn’t a native English speaker and never used Photoshop before Second Life, those are really things that fill me with pride and happiness.

However, if my SL was only blogging and roleplaying, it would be a very empty thing. In friendship I am not the sort to have thousands of people in my life but those I do have, in both Worlds, matter greatly to me.

So today I wanted to thank those of you I have had the chance to share this world with (and for some both). Whereas it’s friends from accounts past that I do not get to talk to as much nowadays, but still care for a lot like Asthenia, Sehra, Bunny, Takuma and Takuya. Friends from roleplay like Dark, Max, Mae, Karen, Naomi, Sira, Lucius, Kiryu, Ginger, Emily, Mollie, Ram and London. Friends to stay sane like Blue, Peri, Lundy, Sadie, Piper, Valerian, Cole, Kouta and Clio. Or quite simply the best of friends, Emmy and Cat.

All of you make logging on great and I hope seeing your names up there will have you smiling just like you have me smile every day.

And here is to another year of blogging!

Credits for outfits can be found here, here, here and here.